FAILURES ARE NOT FOREVER..

That was what i just read as i was opening my mailbox.

Full with loads of junk. Mostly forwarded e-mails.

1905 of em

and i stumbled unto one that had the title above as its own.

Why is it significant you wonder?

I applied fo PTPTN.
(Ptptn if you're reading this, i suggest you "eFfin" upgrade you server system immediately)

and i filled in all the information needed for the application form.

STILL didn't get the bloody thing.

WHY? Cause their server didn't register my application.

then to top that off i realised that i can't use my SPM transcript to apply..

Got a call from my Dad. Explain'ed the situation.

Got a Lecture from both Mum And Dad.

Didn't know why, emotions flooded me.

Then I knew. And it wasn't cause my parents scolded me.

Blamed Myself.

Felt LIKE a Failure.

Emo as Shit.

Felt Like Shit.

Everything that happened up to today proved I was Shit.

then at cell, we were talking bout faith.

And then i read this e-mail

Feeling Much Better.

I guess.


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